It has been a while since I've posted on the blog. I apologize but it has been a bit of a tough week. This week, on the same day, I heard that my Aunt who has been battling terminal breast cancer, found out that her cancer has spread to her bones & that our worship leader, Mr. Carson had some type of seizure that was related to his brain cancer and has lost some function (you can read his journey under "friends" on the sidebar). CANCER. A word that I have come to despise. I'll be honest. I've asked God "why" a million times. It is no coincidence that our church theme this year is "Perservering to the End in 2010...... with JOY". Cancer isn't very joyful. It's painful and hard to watch some of my heroes struggle with their bodies. However, I'd like to share how the Lord blessed me through these two wonderful people. Saturday I was able to spend an afternoon with my Aunt. She has always had a vibrant, funny personality and that hasn't changed. She is able to laugh about some of the things her cancer is doing to her body. She is amazing.
Sunday, I had to watch our worship leader make the very hard decision that he just couldn't play the piano that day. The seizure had robbed him of a majority of his vision and it was just too much. I will be honest. It was one of the hardest things I've ever watched. His body wanted to play but it just couldn't. I was so upset. "Why God!!" He has always used this amazing gift to worship you!!" Why take it from him?""
Well, let me tell you what the Lord showed me......... While we were singing, I was able to watch this man worship. While we were singing, the Lord showed me a different way he was going to have him worship.. With his hands raised to heaven. Mr. Carson had never been able to lift his hands in our worship service before because he had always been worshiping with his hands by playing the piano. God didn't TAKE anything from him. He just changed it up a bit. That man of God who has been through so much in just 6 short months STILL singing praises to our God with his hands raised is not a picture I will ever forget.
I'll leave you with a song that has been my comfort in times such as these.....
Because He lives,I can face tomorrow.
Because He lives, all fear is gone.
Because I know, who holds the future.
And life is worth the living, just because He lives!